I AM

I found a note today I wrote to myself while still living in New York and dealing with the heartbreaking reality that someone close to me in my life had lost their faith and vision. They having succumbed to the beast of selfishness had become debilitated and were no longer capable of love. I sometimes would wonder if I ever listened to my Guru (my spirit) then but amazingly enough I did. Choosing out peace by not arguing, not pretending to agree with their false perception as the concluding definition of our families life and then moving towards change in making my life what I wanted it to be. I didnt realize it back then but I was doing my best in being true to myself and my commitments. The note was seemingly simple yet profound at the same time. I can look at how things are now and reflect on how we choose into the things in our lives. I know my guru was right because I can freely honor this today.

"I AM not going to be MAD, for MAD is not an emotion."
"I AM not going to be hurt"
"I AM going to speak my mind and FEEL:
"FEEL" love, peace and remain true to myself!" 
and yes indeed "I AM" 
"I AM SONYA" 
 Thank you Guru! - Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone