When the mind bleeds out

"There is nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and bleed."
~ Ernest Hemingway

THE THOUGHT, THE BIRTH, THE RESULTS


I am looking

"I am looking for the human who admits his flaws Who shocks the adversary by being kinder not stronger."


What would that be like? 


We don't even know." 


Naomi Shihab Nye 

"THANKSGIVING DAY TRUTHS"



"T H A N K S G I V I N G   A N D   T R U T H"

I have to admit that there is truly something drives me from within, to thirst after truth and understanding. I don't know if this is something unique within myself, or maybe everyone experiences this and the only difference is the way it manifests itself each of us. For me, it intensifies without provocation and sometimes it's something that I read, hear or learn that leaves me feeling like there is something being withheld from my understanding and it puts my gears into drive. When I have attained enough of the right information to calm those curiosities, that feeling subsides, and if there is more that I need to learn, it remains.
None the less, THANKSGIVING really is a jem of a day that I am so thankful to have on our calander. I'm sure many of you would agree that you are thankful daily and offer that thanks in your own ways. You probably would also agree that it doesn't change things for you just because we have this holiday to focus on that gratitude. However, if we didnt have it, things would be different.
I am really thankful for the change in pace, thinking, feelings and thoughts that the celebration of Thanksgiving provides. The focus that returns to the home and the family. To our health, our faith and homes.
Having said that, I complete a means of addmission and awareness.
 Last but least I admitt to myself this truth that I haven't written on my blog for sometime. Why, because Life has been so hard, and so busy, so full, so empty, so "LIFE"(generally speaking), ...yet it has also been a bless-ed one. My internalizing so many thoughts and feelings over this time, that even my journal has taken a severe blow. I may have needed that fast, I may need a little more but I do feel a shift inside that needed time to grow. I will nurture this and continue, in thanks to move forward and remain as always, at the end of every day, GRATEFUL, GRATEFUL, GRATEFUL!  


By: Maria Jeffrey | November 24, 2016

As we celebrate Thanksgiving today, you may think that the gathering of family and friends over a feast has its roots with the Thanksgiving the pilgrims celebrated in Massachusetts in 1621. But there are other historical claims to the first Thanksgiving in America. Here’s one such story you might not know:

When Captain John Woodlief and 35 settlers landed on the banks of the James River in Virginia on Dec. 4, 1619, they got to their knees and prayed: “We ordain that this day of our ships arrival, at the place assigned for plantacon [sic], in the land of Virginia, shall be yearly and perpetually kept holy as a day of Thanksgiving to Almighty God.”

Before setting sail from England, Captain Woodlief had been instructed by his employers at the Berkeley Company to say a prayer of thanksgiving upon safe arrival and to establish a yearly tradition of doing so.

Thanksgiving: An open call to prayer
Over a year later, the Plymouth pilgrims celebrated the iconic harvest festival in Massachusetts. It was an impromptu event, and wasn’t intended to be a yearly affair like the Berkeley Thanksgiving. But for decades, American children have been taught that we celebrate Thanksgiving in the tradition of the Plymouth pilgrims in Massachusetts. Barely anyone is aware of the Virginia claim to the first Thanksgiving.

Why?

In 1962, President John F. Kennedy issued a Thanksgiving proclamation, specifically crediting the Massachusetts pilgrims: “Over three centuries ago in Plymouth, on Massachusetts Bay, the Pilgrims established the custom of gathering together each year to express their gratitude to God for the preservation of their community and for the harvests their labors brought forth in the new land. Thanksgiving Day has ever since been part of the fabric which has united Americans with their past, with each other and with the future of all mankind.”

A Virginia state Senator, John J. Wicker, noticed the nod to the Massachusetts settlers and notified President Kennedy of the Virginia claim to the first Thanksgiving:

“Your Presidential Proclamation erroneously credits Massachusetts Pilgrims with America’s First Thanksgiving observance. As we demonstrated a year ago to the Governor of Massachusetts by original historical records of the Congressional Library, America’s First Thanksgiving was actually celebrated in Virginia in 1619 more than a year before the Pilgrims ever landed. And nearly two years before the Massachusetts Thanksgiving. Virginia’s claim was officially recognized by President Abraham Lincoln nearly a century ago and further substantiated by historian Dabney’s comprehensive article in the November 29, 1958 Saturday Evening Post. As a matter of fairness, please issue an appropriate correction.”
The famed historian Arthur Schlesinger Jr., working in the White House at the time as a close aide to President Kennedy, replied to Senator Wicker:

“The President has asked me to reply to your telegram about the Thanksgiving Proclamation statement. You are quite right, and I can only plead an unconquerable New England bias on the part of the White House staff. We are all grateful to you for reminding us of the Berkeley Hundred Thanksgiving: and I can assure you that the error will not be repeated in the future.”
To JFK’s credit, his Thanksgiving Proclamation in 1963 included the Virginia claim to the first Thanksgiving. But what was said was said, and that bell could not be un-rung. The Mayflower story quickly became one of the foundational American tales that all children learn and never forget.

Except on the James River. Graham Woodlief, a direct descendent of Captain Woodlief, has made sure the memory of the Berkeley Company’s Thanksgiving stays alive at Berkeley Plantation in central Virginia: every year since 1958, the Virginia Thanksgiving Festival is held on the first Sunday of November to commemorate Captain John Woodlief’s historical contribution to celebrating Thanksgiving in America.

Good ship Margaret
 
 
So does it ever bother Woodlief that most Americans are unaware of the Margaret and historical significance of Charles City, Va.?

“The Virginia Thanksgiving Festival organization’s mission is to ‘set the record straight’ and educate people, including children, about this historic event,” Woodlief told Conservative Review.

He said that this year, the Virginia Thanksgiving Festival also worked with Central Virginia Public Broadcasting to produce a documentary. It was picked up by 199 PBS stations across the country and will reach 216 million American homes over Thanksgiving this year. Woodlief said they hope to get the documentary in the education system as well.

“If we continue to do these things, perhaps we can change the perception of where the first Thanksgiving really occurred,” Graham Woodlief stated.

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3 Nephi 11:29
For verily, verily I say unto you, he that hath the spirit of contention is not of me, but is of the devilwho is the father of contention, and he stirreth up the hearts of men to contend with anger, one with another. Behold, this is not my doctrine, to stir up the hearts of men with anger, one against another; but this is my doctrine, that such things should be done away. 



My Wish For You...


He is exactly the poem I wanted to write. -Mary Oliver

As I stare at the pen in my hand I know not from where The Scribe shall emerge, the life I live is one symbolic of an endless melody of dreams and hopes, love notes, cards, doodles, letters, scratches, scribbles, sentiments unspoken and overall the story of writers block. I hear my breath inside, it is heavy and labored and I set down my pen now for I am afraid to write more.
-SJ

To be or not to be?

WORDS - Clinomania

One of a Kind is anything but Ordinary!

Eyes Wide Opened


Present yet totally Lost in my thoughts. I think I have determined the sensation of being lost & overwhelmed lies somewhere between the awareness of where we stand and the seemingly intangible shore before us.

WORDS





WORDS

I love learning and I LOVE learning words: new words and old words in conjunction of their true meanings. Words are magical, they build you, others and our understanding. They take you to unimaginable places, create context when nothing else is present. Imply and Infer and have power to open hearts and minds, peace and fulfillment. They create bonds and stir the soul, they can convey things from long past and paint a canvas for a future to come. They provide support, hope, save lives and direct journeys, they can pull from the deepest corner of ones soul, power unimaginable to the conscious mind. I believe in WORDS, but like a pair of legs, so are our actions. We must be responsible and accountable to our words. Unleash love and communication from them and nothing else.

I will post words w the WOI as they come and go!


(WOI) are my posts called WORDS OF INTEREST





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  1. lex·i·cog·ra·phy
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    noun
    1. the practice of compiling dictionaries.

L.O.V.E.


DO NOT BE AFRAID


WHATS IN A REAL PARTNERSHIP

While the picture is a little scandalous, I can appreciate the message!


Baker Dam

THE SIGN CLEARLY SAID:

WELCOME TO BAKER DAM






This particular day we had spent most of our time at home doing, working, cleaning and just attending to forgotten things around the house. All though it was quite productive, each individually and as a whole, we decided not let the whole day burn away. The sands of time weren't s lowing, and it was time to get out for a bit. 

It's always eventful when it is time for one of our random, spontaneous adventures we enjoy doing together so much. So we hopped in the car, flipped a coin and headed in the winning direction of our coin toss, to see something, and somewhere we had not ventured before. After we skimmed the pavement for a while, there was a turn off coming upon us. Was this it?  "Welcome to Baker Dam" the sign announced. Somehow they had been expecting us?!
 We took our turn and drove a steady pace as not to miss a thing. At the end of the sagebrush and pinion pine lined drive, and a sharp turn, this is what we found. 
We drove ourselves around imagining in ways that we had the 4 wheeling capabilities we could only long for from our trusted little sedan. We looked about, saw a father fishing with their child, birds sailing, fish leaping, pastel pink cacti in brilliant bloom, campsites and trails to accommodate.  We did enjoy this new local treasure and its surroundings. The payoff was a fantastic time, priceless fun, forever memories and the signature from God of his Sons amazing creations, the heavens blanketed with the skilled quilters craftsmanship of a beautiful sunset. 

I have been so blessed in so may ways, but nothing compares to my family. It's an eternal one as well. :) For that knowledge and blessing, I would not trade for all the rubies of the earth.


Note the photos with the armies of the bugs. I was initially startled that they were starving mosquitos on the keen prowl for our warm blood. What ever these were though, they were indeed many. Together they orchestrated a light static buzz in the air, yet didn't so much as bother any of us. It was very hard for them to go unnoticed though. Our confidence in them was secured with the rolling-up of our windows and giving them the better portion of space. One could only assume they were already home and we at the least their welcomed visitors.

Life: How to Make the Most of It.

I love this article. This resonated a lot of my awareness, my way of thinking and perspectives on things as a whole.


Life: How to Make the Most of It.
Marlando

So many of us never (truly) make the best of our lives. I do not believe that this is the result of the individual's faults and failures but is at least partially caused by the earliest indoctrinations and misinformation given us.

The target of this piece is to motivate us to leave the negative and harmful by the wayside and take charge of our own destinies.

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In my opinion happiness isn't something that you are born with. Happiness is something that happens through a series of experiences, habits and realizations over the course of your life.  This isn't a guide to try and fix people who are clinically depressed, but a series of things I have learned over my life that have shaped the way I look at life and the world.  It is my experience that the more positive habits you have in your life, the more emotional happiness you will experience.  Instead of telling you things you should do to increase your emotional satisfaction, I’ve created a list of bad habits you should try to correct.  Not only will they make you happier, they will also make you a better person.
Chronic Complaining The one thing that happy, successful people don't do a lot of is complaining. While it is psychologically beneficial to vent when you are under stress, there is a difference between small venting sessions and being a chronic complainer. The chronic complainer tends to always have something wrong in their life, their issues are more important than everybody elses, and when you have something to vent about yourself, they aren't very interested in listening. Everybody gets dealt a hand in life. Some get dealt better hands than others, but at the end of the day this is the hand of cards that is yours.   Chronic complainers tend to complain about their job, their significant other, how little money they make or how something wasn't fair.  I have news for you, anybody anywhere has hundreds of things they could complain about at any given time.  If you are a chronic complainer, quit whining and talk about the things that are positive in your life and focus on what is good.  If you have a problem, sit down and work out a solution.  Constant complaining does nothing but push your friends away and keep you in that dark unhappy place. You have good in your life, find it, and share it. [5]
Retail Therapy Life is about experiences, however so many people get caught up in materialistic items that they forget what truly makes us happy.  Sure the latest gadget may make you feel good for the evening, but that high is temporary, and you will be back chasing that retail high shortly after.  Get out and experience the world.  If you can't afford to get away, become a tourist in your own city.  Skydive, bungee jump, go to the beach alone, take a hike on an unknown trail, go up to a complete stranger and invite them for coffee, hell… read a book; there are so many things you could be doing that will enrich your life that doesn't involve buying things.

Binge Drinking Alcohol can be hard to avoid. It is present in almost every social situation.  As most people know alcohol is a depressant.  While alcohol can help loosen you up in these social situations, drinking excessively on a regular basis can cause all sorts of havoc on your life.  Since alcohol is a depressant, the following day after drinking yourself silly usually results in a pretty unproductive day.  Not only does this lead to the feeling like you have wasted a day, it also leads to poor eating decisions and lack of exercise.[6][9]
Worrying About the Future No matter what you do, you only have so much impact on what the future has in store for you.  Could you get laid off? Maybe.  Could you catch a life threatening disease? Yup.  The thing is, you have very little control over whether or not these things happen, so why spend your time worrying about it.  As long as you have a reasonable game plan and are living responsibly you should be focused on what is going on in your life now.  Focus on what you are doing this second, if you hate it, do something else. Right now I'm looking outside, it is sunny and my cat is rubbing up against my leg. I couldn't be happier.
Waiting for the Future Much like worrying about the future, many people focus on future events instead of what is going on right now. The chain of thought usually starts like this:
When you are in high school, you think you will be happy when you graduate. Once you've graduated, you think you will be happy once you land a good job.  Once you have the dream job, you think you will be happy when you are married.   Next you think you will be happy when you have kids.  Once you have kids, you think you will be happy when they move out of the house. Next it will be when they have kids.  Before you know it you will have spent your entire life waiting for events to bring you happiness just to realize life (and happiness) has passed you by.
 Lack of Hobbies Before I even get started, your job, house cleaning and watching TV are NOT hobbies.  Hobbies are activities that you can become passionate about.  Hobbies are something that you can do when you have three hours of free time on a Thursday night.  Hobbies are skills that could potentially earn you money if you become good enough at them.  Happy people tend to have hobbies, whether your hobby is kick boxing, playing the guitar, or even basket weaving.  Hobbies give you something to do with your free time and give you some time for YOU. This is time you are investing in yourself. Group hobbies also have the added benefit of giving you additional socializing time.  
 Eating Poorly Making bad food choices or eating too much is not only bad for your health, it can make you feel lethargic, guilty, depressed and when done for extended periods of time typically results in gained weight.  Unfortunately eating poorly is a vicious cycle.  Often times people eat to self medicate when they are feeling down.  They feel great for a few minutes while they eat their delicious treats, but then feel guilt afterwards, followed by lack of energy and reduced productivity.  Eating healthy not only makes you have more energy, it also makes you look better, which makes you feel better about yourself.  Contrary to what the millions of fitness magazines out there will tell you, 90% of how you look is determined by what and how much food you put in your body, not how much time you spend running on a treadmill.  Eat right, look great, and feel great.[7] [8]
Talking Poorly of Others “Great people talk about ideas, average people talk about things, and small people talk about wine.” ~Fran Lebowitz
Next time you go out, listen to what people talk about.  Are you spending your time gossiping or talking about other people.  Unhappy people get caught up talking about other people instead of talking about things such as ideas or current events.  
Unhappy people also have a tendency to judge others.  "Look what that idiot is doing!. "Can you believe what she is wearing".  If you catch yourself judging somebody you don't know, bite your tongue.  Trashing somebody else might make you feel better for a moment, but all you are doing is masking your insecurities by trying to put them beneath you.  Instead, try complimenting others, at first it might be hard, but it will make you feel good and will make you a much more desirable person to be around.
Holding Grudges Harbouring animosity towards somebody is like carrying around a backpack full of rocks.  You don't have a problem carrying it, but it is a load on your back, and life sure would be easier if you could just take it off.  Do yourself a favour, forgive.  This doesn't mean you need to become best buds with whomever has done you wrong, but come to terms with what has happened and understand that people make mistakes.  Forgiving will help free you of anxiety,  stress and depression and allow you to have happier relationships. Free yourself of the hate, and move on.[4]
Stop Learning “The moment you stop learning, you stop leading.” - Rick Warren
It isn't hard to become complacent in life.  You've spent so much time going to school to eventually get a job that learning sometimes takes a backseat to life.  Learning doesn't need to be a chore.   Just like hobbies, get out there and learn about something you are passionate about.  Like mexican food? Sweet, start reading about it and practice making five star restaurant quality mexican food.  Learning new things not only gives you things to talk about in social environments, it also helps improve your self worth, which leads to happiness.
Not Following Through It is easy to sit on the couch and make a list of things you want or plan to do.  Actually getting up off the couch and doing them takes a lot more energy. They say that taking the first step is always the hardest part with any plan.  Quit making excuses and walk the walk, nobody is going to do it for you.  Want to go back to school? Pick up the phone and register.  Want to lose 10 lbs? Get in your car and drive to the gym. Today is the first day of the rest of your life.  Quit letting the first step hold you back.
Hating Your Job 
Fact: Most people have to work to survive. Fact: The average full time work week is 40 hours.  With two weeks vacation most people work 1920 hours per year. ...If you are going to spend 1920 hours per year working, please make an attempt to like your job.  Since you will be spending 22.4% of your entire year (yes that includes sleeping hours) you better like what you are doing.  Now, before you jump to conclusions that you hate your job, think to yourself, "Do I really hate my job, or have i just complained about it to others so much that I think I do?".  
So many people love their job when they first start.  As time goes on, co-workers start to complain about things, and then you start to find little things that bother you, then soon enough everybody's complaining has amalgamated into this giant ball of hate.  Next thing you know you are blaming your job for your unhappiness.  If this is your situation, you can either A) Start telling yourself something you love about your job daily, and make sure you relay this to your co-workers in an attempt to learn to re-love your job or B) If it is too late, and the damage is done, move on to a similar job elsewhere and do everything you can to keep things positive from the get go.
In the event you genuinely hate your job and doing it another day is going to cause you endless grief, simply take the plunge, and move on.  Being unhappy for close to a quarter or your life just isn't worth it.[10]
Loneliness (How you Choose to Socialize) One of the biggest causes of unhappiness is loneliness.  I'm not referring to having somebody special in your life; having a significant other doesn't mean you won't be lonely.  Being lonely generally stems from lack of social stimulation.  The technology age is definitely perpetuating this by means of text messaging, Facebook, Twitter and other 'Social Networks'.  People are so addicted to these forms of social technology that they forget humans require real genuine human interaction. Socially insecure people tend to gravitate to online socializing because they have more control over the amount and timing of their interactions.  Reducing face to face interactions tends to reduce social anxiety for less extroverted individuals. Unfortunately staying within your comfort zone, limits personal growth, and prevents the development of valuable face to face relationships.[11]
Don't have something to do tonight? Instead of commenting on everybody's Facebook statuses, give somebody a call and go out for a drink, you would be surprised how much better it feels to talk to a real life physical human being.  
If you are single and feel like you need a significant other to be happy, I am going to be blunt,  YOU ARE WRONG.  You can't be in a healthy relationship until you are happy independently.  Using somebody else as a crutch for your happiness is a one way trip to an unhealthy relationship.  If you are struggling to find a companion, stop looking in bars and stop looking online.  Consider joining activity clubs for singles or participate in a group activity that encourages socialization.  You will meet like minded people who share more in common with you that booze or Facebook friends.
Letting Negative Thoughts Enter Your Mind In the past I had this problem.  Negative thoughts would enter my  mind and I would let them stick around.  They would then sit there, fester and take control of my emotions and my happiness.  This got to the point I actually spoke to my doctor about it and he gave me this advice.  When these thoughts enter your head, immediately think of something else.  You choose what you think about, and the longer you entertain a negative thought, the more it is going to stay in focus.  We are all human, and bad thoughts will enter our heads from time to time, but by being conscious of what you thinking about you can push them out of your head before they take you over.
Jumping to Conclusions Jumping to conclusions is a huge source of not only unhappiness but also anxiety for people.  Jumping to conclusions usually comes in one of two forms; Fortune telling and mind reading.
Fortune Telling is when a situation arises and you automatically predict that things are going to turn our poorly.  Because of this fortune telling, you often take yourself out of these situations, which for the most part would end in a great experience.  You lose out by having jumped to conclusions and predicting an unsatisfactory outcome.
Mind reading is when you automatically assume that others are negatively reacting to you or something you've done when there is no definite evidence.  This can and will make you feel like a victim and can result in unfounded resentment towards these imaginary reactions.[2]
Magnification Often times unhappy people have a tendency to blow small things out of proportion.  Take a step back before you deal with an issue and try to look at it objectively.  Often times if you try to take yourself and your emotions out of the equation and think it through you will realize that you are making a big deal out of nothing.  If you still aren't sure, ask somebody you trust what they would do in this situation before losing sleep over it. [2]
Minimization The exact opposite of magnification is minimization.  Minimization is when you take real problems and instead of dealing with them, tell yourself they are insignificant.  Unfortunately you can only sweep your problems under the rug for so long before they explode.  People tend to ignore problems like debt, infidelity, obesity amongst other things.  If this sounds like you, stop ignoring your ongoing problems, become actionable and take steps to fix them.  Much like grudges, you will feel much better once these problems have been resolved.[2]
Self Labelling How you talk to yourself can seriously affect your self image.  When you make a mistake, tell yourself "You made a mistake, next time you will do better".   Saying things like "You are an idiot", or "You are a piece of crap" does nothing but lower your self worth.  This might sound insignificant, but you need to believe in yourself to be happy, and calling yourself names prevents you from moving on after you've made a mistake.[2]
Not Having a Goal One of the most exciting things in life is setting a goal and accomplishing it.  Happy people have a tendency to make both short and long term goals.  Short term goals give you mini accomplishments that build self confidence and keep you motivated for the big picture.  These goals can be related to anything that is important to you. Fitness, finance and hobby related goals are examples of goals you can set immediately.  Successful people are constantly setting and accomplishing goals.  
While lack of ambition has a tendency to lead to mediocracy and limited emotional satisfaction,  unhappy people often set goals too.  The problem with unhappy people's goals, is they tend to be unachievable. One study shows[12] that people suffering from depression often set goals that they are incapable of accomplishing  When these goals don't come to fruition, negative self reflection begins.  For this reason, incremental goals are extremely important to build self confidence and positive reinforcement for the goal setter.  Start small, and build up steam, you are the only thing that stands in the way.
Worrying What Others ThinkSo many people spend a ridiculous amount of time trying to please others.  This generally stems from the insecurity that other people are judging them.  People do their hair a certain way, dress a certain way, and act a certain way in an attempt to fit in.  All these things take so much energy yet in most circumstances the people you are friends with would like you regardless if you did the things you do to try and impress them.  Stop doing things for other people and do things that make you happy. Go out with your hair a mess, wear a pair of torn up sweat pants in public and do it with a smile on your face.  Your friends will like you regardless and if you don't know somebody, why do you care what they think.
 Let Strangers Affect Your Mood The world is a scary place.  There are lots of pissed off people and people who want to drag you down to their level.  If somebody gives you the middle finger while driving, smile back at them and let them spend their energy being cranky. Don't let somebody else's bad day control the outcome of yours. If you have to deal with a grumpy person, kill them with kindness.  Often times your unfounded happiness will make them realize how big of a jerk they are being.
 Wanting more Money Money, everybody wants it, nobody seems to have enough of it; Or do they?  Most people think that if they had more money, their happiness would increase accordingly.  Unfortunately, much like "Waiting for the future" above, the illusion that more money will solve all your problems and make you happy is nothing more than just that, an illusion. According to a Princeton University study, emotional well being  and happiness does rise with income, but only to an annual household income of $75,000 [1].  If your household income is already over $75,000 it might be time to reevaluate your happiness, more money is probably not going to make you that much happier.




Losing a Friend. Boris Arthur Schiel 1924-2014

People come in and out of our lives daily. Oft times we take no regard to the strangers that cross our paths, when within each of us is a self-worth laden with a life time of experiences unmeasurable. It's a task when you realize this whole heartedly and see a value in everyone. At least within myself, it stirs a desire to know the others heart. We are so alike yet diverse because of circumstance more often than not, no fault of our own. Judgement has no foundation in this place. It makes loving and forgiving easier. 
All of that said, can take me straight to my own assigned soap box (it's a fact we all have one). However, I really just wish to share and honor someone who I was blessed to have enter in my life. This dear couple became friends to me and my children. Their love and example immeasurable. Our last visit with Boris was after a recent car accident.
 Visiting from out of town, I ran into an old neighbor. As I expressed to her of my plans to go visit our mutual friends, she let me know of the misfortune of their recent accident. Grateful for this serendipitous encounter, I knew where to find them. Had I not run into her, I very well would've knocked on the door, to receive no answer, leave a note and left saddened by the unfortunate timing. Instead, we had a nice visit and expressed our consern and love for both of them. 
Timing isn't always so forgiving as I learned upon my return, of Boris's passing. A quick visit with a heavy heart to another with a broken heart. Saddened to have not been there to say farewell or offer that added support, I am thankful for him and his sweet wife. For whatever reason I was not made aware in time to attend his funeral, I'm more grateful for our last visit. The kiss he gave to my cheek and the words he spoke, "I love you" are embossed into my heart. 
I am thankful to have the knowledge and personal testimony, that we are all part of an eternal family. We have a loving Father in Heaven, our spirits are eternal, this life does not have to be the end to our friendships or our families. 
God speed brother Boris, I will see you again!
                 
                                         
                                          
                                         
                           
                                         
                                         
                                     

                                           


Boris Arthur Schiel
1924-2014
Boris Arthur Schiel, beloved husband, father, grandfather, and friend passed away May 9, 2014 in Orem, Utah, at age 90. The third of four children, Boris was born in Riga, Latvia on March 7, 1924 to Arthur Schiel and Nina Dournovo. Boris held fond memories of his childhood in Latvia. Due to an imminent Russian invasion of The Baltic Republics, his family moved to Posen, Germany in 1939. While at the University of Stuttgart, he met an architecture student from Estonia, Ilse Rosenwald, whom he married on July 15, 1950. In September 1954, Boris graduated with a Master's of Architecture from the University of Karlsruhe, and he subsequently practiced in Germany.
In 1954 while in Karlsruhe, Boris and Ilse joined the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. This was a defining moment in Boris's life. In 1957, Boris, Ilse and two children immigrated to the United States. Boris and Ilse were sealed in the Salt Lake Temple in 1959, followed by U.S. citizenship in 1964. Boris earned two M.A. degrees: in German, University of Utah; and in Russian, Vanderbilt University. He practiced architecture and taught German and Russian, living in New York, NY; Salt Lake City, UT; Nashville, TN; Murray, KY; St. Petersburg, FL; Provo, UT; Palm Springs, CA; Los Angeles, CA; and Orem, UT.
In January 1985, Ilse passed away. In December 1985, Boris was sealed to Liselotte Haertl in the Los Angeles Temple. Liselotte, an immigrant from Germany, truly blessed the lives of Boris and his family. Together with Liselotte, Boris served several L.D.S. missions, including Frankfurt, Germany Temple Mission 1989-90; Riga, Latvia Mission 1992-93 (instrumental in sharing his faith in his homeland); Freiberg, Germany Temple Mission 2000-01; and Stockholm, Sweden Temple Mission 2001-02. He also was a sealer in the Mt. Timpanogos Temple.
Boris treasured his friends and loved everyone unconditionally, hosting many visitors from all walks of life and numerous countries. He avidly traveled himself. Boris is survived by his devoted wife, Liselotte; three children: Peter Schiel, Rita Schiel, Alex and (Jennifer) Schiel; seven grandchildren; and two sisters, Irene and Tamara. He was preceded in death by his parents, his first wife, Ilse; and brother, Juris. Funeral Services will be held Thursday, May 15 11:00 a.m. at Suncrest Stake Center, 90 N. 600 W., Orem UT. Friends are invited to visitation on Wednesday, May 14, at Walker Sanderson Funeral Home 646 E. 800 N., Orem, UT, from 6:00-8:00 p.m. and on Thursday morning, May 15, from 9:30-10:45 prior to funeral service. Interment will be at Provo City Cemetery.

What's In My Hands



An anonymous author’s novel written on the walls of an abandoned house in Chongqing, China


My memory is certainly in my hands. I can remember things only if I have a pencil and I can play with it. I think your hand concentrates for you. I don't know why it should be so.
                                                                                                             -Dame Rebecca West

JUDGEMENTS and THE TOOL BOX


My opinion on judgements is close to something like this, off the top of my head.

 To assume your idea of what I look like, or should look like and have or allow your opinion to define the summation of my character, is as preposterous, well, as it sounds. I truly commend this news anchor for speaking up on behalf of the blind ignorance that is sweeping over our society, and destroying a togetherness that mankind should appreciate and embrace. The togetherness that creates strength and healthy people.

Consideration and criticism are both things that are learned, what you practice is what you become. Some people do this outright and others in jest. Such humor is in actuality their way of confessing an underlying truth.

Let me say this straight up. It is never funny or amusing to admit (what is) your choice in poor behavior, as a means of creating one's stage for your upcoming poor performance. You have heard it before, this is just who I am, or I am just selfish etc etc. NO, this is just who you choose to be. This behavior breaks you down, and in the process, it hurts others and erodes those around you.

Heed knowledge when it comes and let wisdom take seed in you.  Sorry, but despite what modern cultures persuasions are,  the worth of one person does not matter more than another, the value one  holds isn't based on your looks, talents, education, title, position or social status. There is a common ground that all of us share, however this begins with respect. Each of us, as unique as we are, cannot be compared nor matched.

To see the beauty within one another, we must have respect for ourselves and others. Then to embrace one an-others strengths and weaknesses, we exercise attributes like: patience, love, kindness, compassion, tolerance and others, some are gifts we've been given, and others require effort. But with this set of keys (tools) and many others, we can unlock the treasures of ones heart, beginning with our own and thus penetrate the surface of judgement resulting in RIGHTEOUS JUDGEMENT.
You will learn to appreciate yourself and those around you, even those that come and go ever so quickly, in a manner that cannot be expressed with words.

A Personal experience:
I have had a personal struggle this last year after an injury to my knee. I crashed on a dirt bike which in a moment, took away from my ability and freedom to do the many things I like, such as, hike, rock climb, mountain bike, motocross, yoga, run, dance, exercise, but even worst, walk, move and sleep without pain. Unable to afford doctor's, surgery, medicine, physical therapy I was in a predicament. Over the year I put on weight that didn't come from throwing myself over a cliff of despair, but slowly, without the ability to use my body, calories from a standard and healthy diet could no longer be managed in balance without the ability to stay active. The disposition of genetic make-up is diverse as well, where one would not have this struggle another may.

The reality of making the emotional adjustments on yourself, when you have a higher standard and connection to who you are was a taxing experience. I couldn't do many things that in fact I thought defined in large measure who I was.

Now comes the best part. Where I am now in the journey is: The respect I had and have for myself has only intensified, as I saw a growth in my faith, my prayers, my determination, my love, patience for myself, understanding, compassion, support and love from my family and friends and many other a-ha moments. I have a new appreciation for HEALTH, my abilities and talents. I see someone limp, and I don't judge but where I may have had compassion before, it is magnified. I see someone with their arms full, I stretch out without hesitation, my hand. I see someone overweight, I wonder if they too have had an injury to which they were not able to over come. I wonder if they live with chronic pain, I wonder last of all, if they see how beautiful they are to me. How wonderful it is to see people with these eyes. Let me reiterate this important lesson again:

Heed knowledge when it comes and let wisdom take seed in you.  Sorry, but despite what modern cultures persuasions are,  the worth of one person does not matter more than another, the value one  holds isn't based on your looks, talents, education, title, position or social status. Our first common ground is RESPECT, anywhere we go from there is up!

Josh Burton was Enlisted and engaged in "THE SERVICE"



...The armed forces of God

Mormon missionary's brother shares miracle preceding his death, pays tribute to his life

By Robert Burton

Editor's note: In this piece, Robert Burton, the older brother of Elder Josh Burton, who died while serving as a missionary for the LDS Church, reflects on the accident that took Josh's life and shares a glimpse into Josh's personality.



Josh had dedicated the last 20 months to serving the 
people of Guatemala

On the morning of Saturday, July 20, 2013, Elder Josh Burton, age 23, of Leavitt, Alberta, Canada, jumped into the back of a pickup truck with three other missionaries and five members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints to help a Guatemalan family move the structure of their home to a safer location.

Though the road to the home was sufficiently dangerous that some local medical workers avoided it altogether, as a missionary for the LDS church, Josh had dedicated the last 20 months to serving the 
people of Guatemala, and he knew this family needed his help.

While ascending a narrow road along a steep hillside, the pickup's driver nudged closer to the edge, trying to make room for an oncoming vehicle. Suddenly, the shoulder gave way and the pickup began to roll, throwing out those in the back until it finally stopped. Though each sustained injuries, all the missionaries could move — all except Josh. Emergency responders transported the unconscious Josh to Cobán and airlifted him to Guatemala City.

Josh's diagnosis was bad: a massive concussion and two severely broken vertebrae. That afternoon, Dr. Asmitia performed emergency surgery, implanting eight pins to stabilize Josh's broken spine. The surgery concluded after midnight. On Sunday morning, President Curtiss of the Guatemala Cobán Mission called my parents, Allan and Heather, informing them that Dr. Asmitia had given Josh a 1 to 3 percent chance of ever walking. If he did recover, it would take up to a year and a half before they could see significant progress. Knowing Josh's passion for life, they were devastated.

"Yet we had hope," my dad said, "that a 1 to 3 percent chance wasn't impossible where the Lord is involved."

After hearing about the accident, both missions in which Josh served — the Guatemala City East Mission and the newly formed Guatemala Cobán Mission — joined family and friends in fasting for him, praying for a miracle.

And the miracle came. After hanging up with the Burtons, President Curtiss joined Dr. Cameron, the LDS Church's regional medical advisor, and others for an initial examination, to see if any motion existed in Josh's legs.

"Josh, lift your legs," Dr. Asmitia said.

Yet under heavy doses of medication, Josh failed to even respond.

This time Dr. Asmitia shouted, "Josh, lift your legs!"

Clenching his fists, Josh exerted all his strength to move his legs. Slowly, he lifted his knees from the bed. Then, he raised his right foot.

The doctors were shocked. Some cried, while others shook hands. Dr. Asmitia's knees gave way, and his assistant had to grab his arm to keep him from falling. One doctor went to the corner and raised his hands in prayer, knowing he had seen God at work.

Dr. Asmitia pointed upward.

"It all came from up there," he said.

In tears, Dr. Cameron called my mom and dad to share the miracle.

"In 38 years of practice, I have seen a lot of miracles," Dr. Cameron said, "but I have never seen something like this before."

My mom immediately booked a flight to Guatemala City to be with her son. After helping her fourth child, Christian, board a plane for the LDS Missionary Training Centre in Provo, Utah, where he was to report that Wednesday, my mom caught her own flight south. By Monday night she was in Dallas, Texas, awaiting a connecting flight to Guatemala City the following day.

Yet by the time my mom arrived in Dallas, Josh's progress had taken a turn for the worse. Due to swelling of his brain resulting from the concussion, Josh's lungs and heart began to fail. After all the doctor's efforts to resuscitate him, Josh passed away at 11:15 p.m. on Monday.

In the days that followed Josh's death, many friends and family arrived at our home to offer their condolences. In each visit, the comforters become the comforted as my dad shared the tender mercies he and my mom saw in Josh's passing.

"When the Lord showed us the miracle recovery of Josh's back, he let us and everyone that prayed for Josh know he heard our prayers. There's no doubt about that. But God knew it was Josh's time, so once he'd shown us, he called Josh home," my dad said.

For the third child in our family, Elder Denny Burton, who reported to the MTC on the same day as Josh and who now serves in the Belgium Netherlands Mission, the gospel of Jesus Christ gives the right perspective to his grief. "I've always known the gospel plan was true. So I realize this isn't a test of my faith, it's just a test of my patience."

Josh was the second oldest of nine children and was homeschooled through elementary, middle and high schools. Upon his return from missionary service, he planned on studying music and business.

Josh's two maxims were "life is music" and "live life to the fullest," and he worked hard to put these into practice.
Josh's two maxims were "life is music" and "live life to the fullest," and he worked hard to put these into practice. As a young teenager, Josh first discovered the magic of Fredric Chopin's "Fantasie Impromptu" and began filling his life with classical mentors like Beethoven, Grieg, Ravel and Rachmaninov.

From that point forward, Josh drank, ate and breathed classical music. As an accomplished pianist, he began composing for the piano, and in the summer of 2010, Josh packed Cardston's Carriage House Theatre for his first concert of his own compositions. Josh moved his audience from laughter to tears as he shared both the excitement and the depth of feeling he found in music. To the delight of his audience, he even did a back flip in his suit pants and dress shoes.

That same year, Josh produced and distributed his first CD, "Sketches," which he made available on YouTube and iTunes. He then went door to door in Cardston and surrounding communities, selling his CDs to earn money for his mission.




 In his compositions, Josh sought to express what mattered most to him, feelings he could only describe through music.

"If you listen, really listen," Josh promises in his CD's dedication, "I think you will hear something more than just notes on a piano, something deeper within the music. And my hope is that you will be better for having heard it."

In all of his endeavors, Josh's goal was to uplift others. On one occasion, a mother in Cardston saw a young man walk past her little girl in the yard. Several minutes later, the mother saw the young man return, hand her girl an ice cream cone and walk on. When she asked her daughter, "Who was that?" she replied, "Josh Burton."

During his lucid moments in the hospital, Josh's chief concern was for his investigators and fellow missionaries.

"He kept asking for his planner," Dr. Cameron said.

At his funeral on Monday, a table displayed many of Josh's personal articles. In the center were his missionary shoes, worn and cracked from so much walking, calling to mind President Kimball's declaration, "My life is like my shoes, to be worn out in service."

As Josh's older brother, I find it nearly impossible to paint the life of my best friend in so few words. Yet those who knew Josh will attest that his life was his message. He loved deeply, lived fully and served faithfully.




I am proud of my three brothers serving as missionaries: one in the Netherlands, one on his way to Mexico and one wherever God may send him.

In another article it read:
"Our thoughts and prayers are with Elder Burton’s family and friends during this difficult time," Todd said.

Throughout his mission, Burton's mother posted weekly messages online from her son to his friends and fans. He talked often about sharing his music with the people he met in Guatemala."Loving Guatemala and my experiences here. Accompanied a group of 200 the other day. Fun stuff," read a post from Burton on July 9, his last update before the accident.

"I'm confident that the experiences of my life here in Guatemala will someday show up in my music.
 I think that's part of the life of an artist."

A June 3 post read: "I'm confident that the experiences of my life here in Guatemala will someday show up in my music. I think that's part of the life of an artist."

Many reached out to Burton's family through social media to offer their condolences, including many missionaries who had worked with the young elder and families he met in Guatemala.

"Burton family, we express to you our regret. We know that Elder Burton was a great missionary and an example of service and love of Heavenly Father," wrote the Alvarez Gonzalez family in Cobán, Guatemala. "We pray for your (comfort), and we know that he will continue preaching the gospel in the Spirit World. We will carry the memories, (time together) and Josh's teachings in our hearts. We will love him forever!"

Thank you for your love, your testimony of our Savior Jesus Christ and for your Service Elder Burton as well as that of your family! Our prayers are with each of you.


See below some of Josh's work: